Tomorrow is da last day of my college life........yea, u heard it right.....no more a coll student, no more a teenager, no more a kid...my childhood is officially over.....and i still cant digest it....! i wonder if everybody goes thru these feelings...i wonder if i grew up too fast.....hav u ever reached a stage in ur life wen ur so content wit whatvever u've got dat u wan no more..... where when u sit down to pray to the Divine, all u ask for is da welfare of ur loved ones n nothing else..no selfish desires watsoever..well, i'm afraid i've reached dat stage....i'm not sure if it's good or bad but one thing is for sure....this is NOT going to last... i know things are gonna change drastically.....the bubble is gonna burst....and SOON..!!they say the biggest challenge is to face ur fears...and my biggest fear is CHANGE....I'm never prepared for it..even though i know it's on its way..and den it hits me hard....this has happened wit me before n i know its gonne happen again...imagine, not goin to coll anymore...man,the thought is so scary....college was my safe zone...when ur in coll, atleast in those three years ,life somehow gets trapped in a time wrap...everyday is a routine...and i kinda like it dat way..u know wat to expect out of ur day...and den things change n ur not ready to accept it.....also when u have ur friends, ur family wit u and u hav the liberty to spend time wit them whenever u wish to, u kinda tend to take them for granted.....and by the time u realize it..its too late..i know i'l hav to move out of this place, forced to live on my own,away from everyone i love....the thought in itself is so scary that i don even wanna acknowledge it...i've always been the dependent kinds...have always been pampered n protected.. and to make matters worse,God has been really kind to give me the best set of family n friends one can ask for...{i've used "WORSE" because it makes it even harder to let go..}trust me, no exagerration here..for those who've always wished for a perfect family and friends to die for..well,meet me...i'm livin a dream..!! but then nothing lasts forever rite...i hope i don come across as too depressin to all those who'r reading this...n for all u know things may not be as bad as i'm makin it out to be....but i'l never know til i don get there....and till den don wake me up..my dream is beautiful...!!!
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hey shrut!!must say i understand wht u going thru ya! last day of coll is tough ya as u have such excellent ppl around u there!! and now u will actually get to taste the world!! do not worry that too will bitter in the beginning but will gradually start tasting sweet like now!!! so juss hang in there!!
And ya wanted to say there are still somethings which do last forever its juss how u look at them... nothin changes untill u make changes in them!!
luv
chetan
hey...totally know what u mean...its like how britney spears said "I'm not a girl,not yet a woman,all I need is time,a moment that is mine while I'm in between"
well if you re sure that nothing lasts forever..then live as if there's no tomorrow..!! as if you have nothing to be afraid of..as if today is your's for what it is..and you only get what you deserve..and i m sure you deserve all the goodness around you!!
cheers!!
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